Today I sent the boys to grandmas because Kiley had a ENT appointment after the appointment Kiley and I went to lunch at my old work place and then headed home to do some much needed house work. I walked inside, changed the baby, made her a bottle and put her to sleep in her crib as I cleaned the house. I got the whole first floor finished when she awoke form her nap. I brought her down stairs and began making dinner. My huband came home from work and I asked him to pick up the boys from grandmas house. when he left I had put kiley down on the ottoman so I could turn down the heat from the oven and take out the chicken. The next thing you know a HUGE BUMP!! Kiley rolled off the ottoman and on to the floor. she scree med and cried I held her tight and tried to comfort her as I began to cry she nodded out again and again...I was hitting her face and screaming as loud as I could because during all the commotion her hearing aids had come off... "KILEY"...."KILEY" I screamed as she came in and out her breathing pattern changed from breathing really hard from crying to really soft like sleeping...I dialed 911 and had to press 1 for an emergency I told the operator what happen he had to transfer me to the medical line...I told the lady what happened she told me to calm down and not to move the baby I told her "too late I'm holding her and if I stop hitting her she will knock out" she said "continue hitting her and stay calm"...after like 3 minutes in walks 4 fireman and 3 medics into my nice clean house and my daughter at this point is fine! I forgot I put brownies in the oven and as they are taking care of her one of the hansom men point out that my brownies smell good I told him "they're probably burning" he went into the kitchen and checked on them and told me they looked fine!! They all left after Kiley came to and was fine. My husband walked up to the house as everyone was leaving the nice fireman assures him that everything is fine!!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
My life in a nutshell!
I always knew I would one day be a wife, mom, bill payer, taxi driver, and ruler of the house. But I didn't realize that it would happen so fast!! I moved out of my parents house the day I turned 18 and shortly after I was in my own home and married to my high school sweet heart and had my first child at 19 Little Matt. I was in labor for 6 hours and then they realized he was breached so we had a emergency c-section this was scary because I only heard bad things about this but on the other hand I didn't want no more pain. When my 1st was born he had to stay 2 extra weeks in the NICU because he was premature. I was unable to see him or hold him for the first 2 days due to my fever. THIS SUCKED!!! He was big for his age but was unable to suck on a bottle, once he got that down everything was smooth sailing and pretty typical. On Little Matt's first birthday we found out we were having our 2ND we then found out it was another boy!!! we were excited!!! I was 6 months pregnant and knew something about this pregnancy wasn't right, everything was different. I went to the hospital a couple of times because he wasn't moving - The doctors all said he was fine and everything was typical. The morning Ethan was born it took 45 minutes from my water breaking to then having another emergency c section to then holding my baby!! I remember praying to god that everything would be fine and that he would be a healthy big boy and he was!!! I was in the hospital on day 2 of Ethan's life and found out that he had a hearing loss. This was heart breaking and I thought the doctors were quacks!! because no one on either side of our families had a hearing loss. 3 weeks later we got a diagnostic test done that said he had a severe sensironural hearing loss in both ears. the lady told us that he could use hearing aids and everything would be fine, we enrolled him in school and began taking ASL classes. The teachers and personal from the "Special" school he was attending said he would most likely NEVER SPEAK. I took him from that program that wasn't helping him to acquire speech to a auditory Oral school that's a hour in a half away from where I live that teaches him how to speak and lestion that I drive to daily! After Ethan had been at this school only a few months we found out we were pregnant yet again!! At this point we had no clue what caused Ethan's hearing loss and had no plans on finding out-we figured there was no point because we knew it wouldn't change anything. However, we needed to know if there was a chance that this baby would have a hearing loss. We got genetically tested and found out that my husband and I both have a gene that together has a 25% chance of hearing loss in every pregnancy we have. At about 6 months along with baby number 3 a girl I KNEW she had a hearing loss!! Kiley and Ethan's pregnancy's were so different from little Matt's but identical to one another. When Kiley was born the tested her and sure enough she has a hearing loss. This time its cake I knew what to do where to go and how and who to get answers from! Kiley is 7 months old and wears hearing aids just like her big bro Ethan who is now 2 1/2!! All of my kids attend this school and are progressing wonderfully! Our family size is complete - I took care of that!!
I hurt so much over Ethan because I wish I would have known all my rights, what to do who to go to. I feel like I failed him in some ways due to me not knowing what to do....
